Thursday, May 31, 2007
My un-permanent life
It's probably one of the reasons why I have a messy room (not that I'm trying to blame anything for my messiness) with all the clutters and stuff everywhere. I guess I don't want to permanently put my stuff away somewhere and get that notion that this goes there forever, because I know it won't. In a few years or so, I'd have to pack it away anyway. When I was a kid, I had this dresser where I put like a collage of pictures of my friends and family on it and whenever I'd stick a new picture I always wondered where I would put them when we move, or when that dresser is taken away from me. I almost filled that glass with pictures too! Until all of a sudden, we had to move, and I had to put them down because I don't even know if I'd get that dresser again. I've never had something for a long period of time. forever. I'd have something for a couple of years and then just lose it (mostly accidentally, hehe).
It's something that I've noticed in my life, even with some friends, I have them for years and years and then suddenly, gone. Lost communication forever until one day you see those people again all changed and different, like my grade school friends. When I left St. Scho, I stayed in touch for a while, then the calls startedI've managed to still talk and kinda keep in touch with some of my old friends, but it's still not the same of course. They're probably my only real friends, and they don't even know it. It's maybe one of the reasons why I have a hard time having uber-close friends now, because it's reawlly hard to open up to people...its laaaame. ha. The only people right now, apart from some family, that I could really talk to about most things are Dara and Lily.
Anyway, my parents also had this thing where they'd give something to you and then take it away. From small things like toys or little treats, when I was a kid, they'd give it to me, but when my sister wanted it, they'd get it from me and give it to her and they would give that "it's what a big sister has to do because she loves her little sister speech," to big things like when that "crisis" thingy happened, it seemed that everything we had, that they'd given us, turned to *poof* nothing. I bet it was harder for them though, and for my older sisters, I guess nothing could have been done because everything just happened overnight, literally.
I've lived my life with knowing that I can't have everything or stay somewhere forever. I used to live a somewhat i-dont-care-whatever destructive life, because I know that even if I ruin everything I had, I just have to wait... wait for that moment... when I have to pack my bags and move...
But honestly, I'm tired of moving, and waiting for that time when I'm told to cover the glasses with newspaper, and constantly changing everything. I want to fix my room and put things where they belong.
I want to find that place I belong.
Thursday, May 24, 2007
The .Com and .co.nz difference
So I MSNed Dara:
JAZ says:
OMG! whats the online dvd place?
JAZ says:
is it www.dvdunlimited.com? because it is not!!!
DARA says:
http://www.dvdunlimited.co.nz/homepage/index.php
DARA says:
it's .co.nz not .com
JAZ says:
ITS A FREAKING PORNO WEBSITE!!!! AHHHHH
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The moral of the story is, if the website warns you about having to be over 18 to get in, you'd bet your ass it would probably be some porn.
I have to go scan my laptop now.
Tuesday, May 22, 2007
Randoms and Reflections
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Our business professor told us to write a journal about ourselves to help understand our strengths and weaknesses more. Like a SWOT analysis (lol!) A little self- discovery thing. It's important to becoming a successful business person. Seriously, I know I will be super duper successful in the future (because if I don't believe in myself, then no one else will!) to just prove something to myself that all this (prolonged) time spent studying and all that is not gone to waste. I've been reading case studies of successful kiwi companies that had the ""black magic" in them, and they are pretty amazing bunch. One of the people that I did a reading on was Karen Walker (not the Will and Grace character), a really big designer name here in New Zealand. She had the idea to mix Lycra with wool, which then brought back wool in the fashion industry, because back then no one really liked wearing wool because they wear out and it's hand wash and u can't hang them when you're drying it. And when she mixed it with Lycra, everyone wanted a piece of it. And now she's this big name that everyone knows!
I don't know, I just find these things amazing and ingenious! Like who would have thought of that! And one day that would be me! Might not be mixing wool and Lycra though, but I'd be thinking of some genius thing and everyone will want a piece of my knowledge! So watch out world! I have a lot of crazy ideas! Muhahaha!
Saturday, May 19, 2007
SPIDERMAN 3 The gayest "action" movie ever.
The moslty all- male cast of Spiderman all cries. Even The Sandman cries for God's sakes. Are we living in a world were men are evolving into pussies? Peter Parker cries like every 5 minutes in the movie, and the movie was 150 minutes. Do the math there, that is a lot of lip quivering.
All in all, it was gay, but it still had cool effects. The best character in that movie was was sandman, not because awww he's only misunderstood but because they did a great job with the effects on him.
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As long as we're talking about "emotional" boys, here are some emo jokes:
How many Emos does it take to screw in a lightbulb?
None. They'd rather sit in the dark & cry.
How do you know an Emo has used your bathroom?
You find him dead in your bathtub.
How many emo kids does it take to fix a lightbulb?
One to fix it, and thousands to write a song about how the shattered pieces reflect their broken lives.
How do you get an emo out of a tree?
Cut the rope.
How do you drive an emo kid insane?
Put 'em in a round room and tell them to go cry in the corner
What do you call 1000 emos at the bottom of the ocean?
A good start.
Whats so tragic about 4 emo kids dying in a car crash?
The car seated 5.
Why do emos always wear white belts?
Because they suck at karate.
How do you keep an emo from drowning?
Remove your foot off his head.
What do you have when you have an emo kid neck deep in concrete?
Not enough concrete.
Sunday, May 13, 2007
My Religion
So what if there's a lot of misconceptions about my religion and what I believe in? There's also a lot of other things that no one can understand. There's a lot of unanswered questions out there. But I don't care. But with everything wrong with the world, I can say I find comfort that I believe in something.