My friend who's in Aussie now is getting married next year. Yay. I should be excited for her... but really, whenever I talk to her, which is like once in 6 months, she seems to have a new boyfriend. I mean, in the span that I'm going out with Dara, she's had 3 (or maybe 4) "serious" relationships. and then she tells me she's getting married... she just turned 21 too... This might be a divorced at 22 situation for her... We used to be pretty close in high school, but how do i tell her she might be making a mistake? she's gonna say in a bitch. hahaha. so ill just watch it play out. meyynnnn i wish i can go to her wedding.

Woot! Woot! Woot!!!

that's right! Justin Timberlake! JT y'all! Don't know how I'm gonna get there and where I'm gonna stay but I am goin! woohoo!

Anniversry! Anniversary!

Yaaay! 2 years of fun last 26th (Wednesday).

me and him. him and me.

orchids and a balloon!

** plus he gave me a slinky and roller blades! then we had dinner and went out dancing! fun! fun! fun!**

p.s. i want a digi cam now =(

9/11

well okay... it is the 13th already. but im lazy. anyway..

Six years ago, where were you? wow 6 yrs? The war's been on that long. I can't believe it. Why do people hold grudges this long? I don't blame them, I probably would hold a lifelong hatred from Iraqis and Muslims if I knew someone who died from 9/11. Anyway, I was listening to the radio 2 days ago and they were talking about 9/11, and one of the guys said, you'd always remember where you were when you found out. And I do! I remember exactly how it happened. I was in the Phils, in our house at Tahanan. Just came out from the bathroom, went to my room, turned on the TV and surprisingly it was on CNN (when the hell did I watch the news? Weird! As I read the little scrolling thing it said something like 'a 747 crashed in NY twin towers' sat on my bed with my mouth open. I even saw the second building collapse. yup. lucky me. i thought it was like a replay or something, but nope. scrolling thingy said second airplane crashed. damn. i didn't know what to do. seemed silly to call my mom at the time. I have relatives in the US but not New York. No one I can remember anyway. So, I watched for a few good hours, called my friends, and asked them if they wanted to go to Town. So yeah. I think the Tsunami had more impact on me though... I was slightly more depressed by that.

Where were you during 9/11? who cares.

I'm not crying

So, you’re leaving, aren’t you?
I knew it when you said just then when you told me you were leaving
That’s when I definitely knew
But if you’re trying to break my heart
Your plan is flawed from the start
You can’t break my heart, it’s liquid
It melted when I met you
And as you turn around to leave
Don’t’ turn back to me
Don’t turn around and see if I’m crying
I’m not crying...

well... that's in america.. it's not showing in NZ yet but it will be! Prime (channel4?) is getting it and showing it here! yay!

Spring Festival (1 Sep 2007)

Last Sunday my sister and I went to Upper Hutt for the Spring Festival, and to go swimming afterwards. It was cool, a lot bigger than the Petone one. It was fun! Missed the parade though. Maybe next year. Yay!

Upper Hutt Spring Festival 1 Sep 2007

Kamikaze ride
Suspended in the air upside down for 10 seconds

Sister and I

Main Street closed off replaced by cool stalls of stuff and food and people walking around

Street performer

Stage performer

Toy I wanted to win

The toys I actually won were a doll that looked like it was abandoned by everyone and a little hamster soft toy. They are still in the car so no pics. I would still go on and keep playing the carni games if my sister didn't pull me away. anyway those were all taken by my cam phone. Yay! cam phone. I missed. BTW, if you didn't know my old phone died on me, so I borrowed my BFs really really really old phone which can store 10 messages. you always have to delete or else you won't get any messages and you'll think, why isn't anyone texting? but they really are and they're all mad because IM the one not replying. HIHI.

let us get high. on life. hahhahahah

Public Toilet Lid Closers.... I hate you

I hate people who closes the the lid of the toilet after they use it. I mean maybe for them it looks neat and everything, but what about the person going next? It's like SURPRISE! Guess whether it's clean or not! Ewww! I used think that people closed the lid because something nasty is in there and you don't want to see it but usually it's a clean toilet. Serously though who would want to touch it? who? Not me!! and what if something nasty really is in there?? Gross gross gross!

So next time, if you're using the public loo don't close the lid. Just flush and don't leave wee marks on the seat (another yucky one!!!)

Chain letters and other internet crap

I hate getting chain letters in my email. They're a waste of time, and very annoying.

"The President of Argentina received this letter and called it 'junk mail', 8 days later his son died. A man received this letter and immediately sent out copies...his surprise was winning the lottery. Alberto Martinez received this letter, gave it to his secretary to make copies but they forgot to distribute: she lost her job and he lost his family. This letter is miraculous and sacred, don ' t forget to forward this within 13 days to at least 20 people. Do Not Forget to forward and you will receive a huge surprise!!"

F that. Seriously, why would people waste their time making those and why would people say such mean, horrible things. 'They didn't forward it, they die?' I should have died/ lost my job/ got someone I love die like 1 miliion times already because of all this poo that I threw out in the garbage (grade school days, not much internet usage yet) or sent straight to the trash folder. Do you forward chain letters that scare people? If so, whyyyy??? and please, don't send it to me. Send me something fun and/or inspirational.

I also have come to the conclusion that my Myspace has been hacked. My email address was changed. How do I know this? I went on "forgot password" typed my email add in and they said that my email is not registered. Also on my page, all my friends are gone and my comments. Soooo tah- tah Myspace! goodbye perverts!

Lychee- rific!

I was reading some old blog entries from this xangan i subscribed to a few years back. He wrote about lychees and how they're yummy and his mum smuggled them from China (he's from america). Then he asked, how do you pronounce it? I always thought it was always pronounced as "LIE-CHEE" but apparently, a lot of asians (or asian americans) say "LEE- CHEE" I've never even thought of pronouncing it that way, just sounds so funny to me. They say 'lee-chee' is mandarin and 'lie- chee' is cantonese, or the other way around. I also found out that a lot of people don't know what the hell they are, it's just some weird asian fruit to them, which is kinda funny to me. They are missing out. I guess it only grows in asia because a lot of my Islander friends don't know what the hell it is.

I love lychees, they're on there on my top favourite fruits. I like them in fruit form, in canned form or in jelly form. I can eat a whole bag of lychee jellies, yummm! Another thing I found out about this fruit is that it takes 5 (or 10) years for the tree to bear fruits. So there, useless facts on lychees. Gotta buy me a can of those from the asian store.

A good day today. A good day.

So today started pretty average. Woke up in the afternoon, watched some TV, then my sister and I decided to go to town to visit the brother and the sister and watch Transformers because it was "Cheap Tuesday" at Regent cinema ($6.00 tix! yay!). On the way there I needed to get some Petrol so we stopped by Shell, filled up the tank. When I looked at the pump it said 30.6 Litres, but it only said S4.83 so I I pressed the thing (the gun thing that u put in your tank, dont know what it's called) again but it my car was so full the petrol spilled out. I thought there was just something wrong with the number, like the first digit was missing or faded or something so I went in, thinking it's probably 54bucks, but the guy told me it was $4.38. He even said "would you like to put some more in that one" I told him something must be wrong with the machine cause it said 30L and he said that petrol prices are changing! LOL LOL LOL. It was the highlight of my afternoon. I kept the receipt so my damily would believe. I don't have a cam though, so I can't post it.

The highlight of my night though was Transformers!! Yeah! I love love love it. I love it so much right after the movie I wanted to buy tickets for the next show! lol. THe effects were great the graphics were great, and there's not much cheesy romance thing. There was but I didn't think it was overly done.My eldest sister said it's a very violent movie that's not for kids but damn it that is what I call an action movie. Not like stupid Spiderman 3 which I am not yet over hating. I wonder why it got bad reviews though. I thought it was awesome.

By the way, I like your spaghetti sauce manong D. Thanks for the feed. =)

Just for Fun

My ex boyfriend (of like 2 weeks), current girlfriend IMed me last night. She logged on his YM and started talking to me. It's so obvious that it was her because she kept talking about herself. So I went along with it. I kept saying "good for you" and "congratulations" but she would not leave me alone! So I messaged her:

JAZ: hey i know ur the gf and i just want to know, why r u so insecure?
HER: huh?
JAZ: im in new zealand for god's sake. if i wanted ur bf id have him by now.
JAZ: leave me alone.
HER: yah! we're very happy together bitch! take care sweetie! =)
JAZ: wow name calling. how very mature. hes soooo lucky he has such a mature gf.
HER: sure take care there! stay safe.

arrrrrrrrggghhh!!!!!! asshole. asshole. asshole. I hate her. Honestly!! I've been in New Zealand for 2 and a half years already, and there she is, so obviously very jealous of me. What a retard. In a way, I am flattered. I can make people insecure even though I don't know them. It makes me happy she's pathetic.

But I really really do not appreciate the name calling. So, I'm going to get them to break up. IF I was in the Philippines, it will be easier, but since I'm not, it might take weeks. I don't really care, as long as they break up. Ohhhhh the joy I would feel! =) Damn it, she could have left me alone, but she didn't. Why are people so stupid? Oh well.

OH NO SHE DI-INT!

Yesterday Dara and I went to one of the computer rooms to do some studying. I was just telling him to check out the site for our course because our grades are up so he can see, when we got shushed by this rude woman wearing weird orange squarish eyeglasses whose probably in her 30s or is just ageing really quickly. It annoyed me to death, not because we were asked to be quiet, but because she didn't ask! She looked at us and started whisper- shouting that we should be quiet and bla bla bla. I honestly saw red. I can't stop the urge to want to take off her tacky glasses and step on it with my adidas. OH HELL NO! How rude! We were practically whispering. Plus, this isn't the library, which we told her that if she went there, she can shush anybody she wanted because that was a quiet area and this wasn't. The nerve of the bitch.

My hands literally started shaking and was so cold and Dara told me to let it go cause I was turning white. Bitch please! Who the hell does she think she is? I know what she is! Rude! That's what! And sooo... I got my bag and noisily took my books out and banged them on the table one by one. I can see her side- staring at me. Gratifying, but not enough. So, I noisily took my stuff and sat at the empty computer station beside her and banged my books (one by one), I think I heard her snort. Then I started typing really loud like someone having a tantrum and then she went, "Excuse me, are you alright?" I just side- looked her, eyebrow arched.

"I'm sorry if I told you off like that awhile ago but people are studying and.."

"I don't see a no talking sign here, have you? cause if there is im so very sorry" and then I turned to Dara and practically shouted "where's the no talking sign? am i blind?"

By then people were staring but I don't care. I was pissed off. and then she told me sorry and something about ettiquette and pressure and i was like shhh people are trying to study, and because of her pissing me off I'm gonna make as much annoying noise as I can. It will be her fault. So I kept typing like a maniac and clicking on the mouse as loud as I can. It was like clicking hell. Click. Click. Click. I was getting pretty annoyed myself, but I have the willpower to make her storm off. That will be pure satisfaction. I hope she fails her exams. Goddamn her!

It probably went on for half an hour, and I was getting tired. Dara even threatened to move rooms because he can't stand it anymore. In the end though, she finally left. Kinda storming out. Good enough for me! Yay! I win! =)

Moral of the story: Don't piss me off! (especially when I'm on my period.)

My un-permanent life

Growing up, I think I think I've moved houses around 10 times, at least. I'm not even sure if that includes the New Zealand moves which was 3 houses in 2 years, but that's alright because our first flat was tiny. And when my mother came over, we had to move to a better place. The second one was okay too, more space, and then my 2 sisters were coming over so we decided to move again, to a "real" house. Anyway, since childhood I think the longest I've continually lived in one place was about 10 years. I have friends who haven't even moved houses since they were born, and I always thought that that was very weird because I thought that you had to move every 2 years or so, but then as I grew up, I realised that we were the weird ones moving around all the time and I constantly had to change addresses on IDs and forms and all those stuff.

It's probably one of the reasons why I have a messy room (not that I'm trying to blame anything for my messiness) with all the clutters and stuff everywhere. I guess I don't want to permanently put my stuff away somewhere and get that notion that this goes there forever, because I know it won't. In a few years or so, I'd have to pack it away anyway. When I was a kid, I had this dresser where I put like a collage of pictures of my friends and family on it and whenever I'd stick a new picture I always wondered where I would put them when we move, or when that dresser is taken away from me. I almost filled that glass with pictures too! Until all of a sudden, we had to move, and I had to put them down because I don't even know if I'd get that dresser again. I've never had something for a long period of time. forever. I'd have something for a couple of years and then just lose it (mostly accidentally, hehe).

It's something that I've noticed in my life, even with some friends, I have them for years and years and then suddenly, gone. Lost communication forever until one day you see those people again all changed and different, like my grade school friends. When I left St. Scho, I stayed in touch for a while, then the calls startedI've managed to still talk and kinda keep in touch with some of my old friends, but it's still not the same of course. They're probably my only real friends, and they don't even know it. It's maybe one of the reasons why I have a hard time having uber-close friends now, because it's reawlly hard to open up to people...its laaaame. ha. The only people right now, apart from some family, that I could really talk to about most things are Dara and Lily.

Anyway, my parents also had this thing where they'd give something to you and then take it away. From small things like toys or little treats, when I was a kid, they'd give it to me, but when my sister wanted it, they'd get it from me and give it to her and they would give that "it's what a big sister has to do because she loves her little sister speech," to big things like when that "crisis" thingy happened, it seemed that everything we had, that they'd given us, turned to *poof* nothing. I bet it was harder for them though, and for my older sisters, I guess nothing could have been done because everything just happened overnight, literally.

I've lived my life with knowing that I can't have everything or stay somewhere forever. I used to live a somewhat i-dont-care-whatever destructive life, because I know that even if I ruin everything I had, I just have to wait... wait for that moment... when I have to pack my bags and move...

But honestly, I'm tired of moving, and waiting for that time when I'm told to cover the glasses with newspaper, and constantly changing everything. I want to fix my room and put things where they belong.

I want to find that place I belong.

The .Com and .co.nz difference

So I was going to check out this online DVD rentals website cus I heard they have 2 weeks free trial and I hear them on the TV ads everyday. The site is called DVD Unlimited, so naturally I type www.dvdunlimited.com (it's not linked so don't go there girlfriend!) Well I got this huge warning that you should be over 18 (and in some coutriees 21). I was thinking isn't this a NZ site? But anyway silly me clicked the "i'm over 18" button and lo and behold, a wide range of PORNO DVD lists comes out! Oh. My. God. They advertise this on TV! What the hell is going on here? maybe I got the wrong site!

So I MSNed Dara:

JAZ says:
OMG! whats the online dvd place?
JAZ says:
is it www.dvdunlimited.com? because it is not!!!
DARA says:
http://www.dvdunlimited.co.nz/homepage/index.php
DARA says:
it's .co.nz not .com
JAZ says:
ITS A FREAKING PORNO WEBSITE!!!! AHHHHH

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The moral of the story is, if the website warns you about having to be over 18 to get in, you'd bet your ass it would probably be some porn.

I have to go scan my laptop now.

Randoms and Reflections

I keep seeing this Proactiv ad on TV, so far I've seen Jessica Simpson, Vivica A. Fox, Vanessa Williams, P. Diddy (can you believe it) and recently, Lindsay Lohan. These past couple of weeks I've been having bad breakouts and I've been thinking if i should buy a set (for only two easy payments of 39.95 oooooh). I know everyone will tell me not to buy it because i am drowning in debt, I can barely make the minimum repayments on my credit card but but but.... can you really put a price on beauty and confidence and health? hihi! Maybe on my next student allowance!
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Our business professor told us to write a journal about ourselves to help understand our strengths and weaknesses more. Like a SWOT analysis (lol!) A little self- discovery thing. It's important to becoming a successful business person. Seriously, I know I will be super duper successful in the future (because if I don't believe in myself, then no one else will!) to just prove something to myself that all this (prolonged) time spent studying and all that is not gone to waste. I've been reading case studies of successful kiwi companies that had the ""black magic" in them, and they are pretty amazing bunch. One of the people that I did a reading on was Karen Walker (not the Will and Grace character), a really big designer name here in New Zealand. She had the idea to mix Lycra with wool, which then brought back wool in the fashion industry, because back then no one really liked wearing wool because they wear out and it's hand wash and u can't hang them when you're drying it. And when she mixed it with Lycra, everyone wanted a piece of it. And now she's this big name that everyone knows!

I don't know, I just find these things amazing and ingenious! Like who would have thought of that! And one day that would be me! Might not be mixing wool and Lycra though, but I'd be thinking of some genius thing and everyone will want a piece of my knowledge! So watch out world! I have a lot of crazy ideas! Muhahaha!

SPIDERMAN 3 The gayest "action" movie ever.

Honestly, were they catering to the "growing emo community?" Spiderman 3: The Battle Within was the movie were the whole cast cries. There were about three fight scenes which were about 5 seconds each and then its singing, dancing, and crying. I mean honestly, who would idolise a superhero who dances on the street? They should have called it Spiderman the musical, Kirsten Dunst sings twice, which is fairly annoying, because her voice is very annoying. Although my sister says it wasn't her voice, anyway, she annoys me.

The moslty all- male cast of Spiderman all cries. Even The Sandman cries for God's sakes. Are we living in a world were men are evolving into pussies? Peter Parker cries like every 5 minutes in the movie, and the movie was 150 minutes. Do the math there, that is a lot of lip quivering.

All in all, it was gay, but it still had cool effects. The best character in that movie was was sandman, not because awww he's only misunderstood but because they did a great job with the effects on him.
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As long as we're talking about "emotional" boys, here are some emo jokes:

How many Emos does it take to screw in a lightbulb?
None. They'd rather sit in the dark & cry.

How do you know an Emo has used your bathroom?
You find him dead in your bathtub.

How many emo kids does it take to fix a lightbulb?
One to fix it, and thousands to write a song about how the shattered pieces reflect their broken lives.

How do you get an emo out of a tree?
Cut the rope.

How do you drive an emo kid insane?
Put 'em in a round room and tell them to go cry in the corner

What do you call 1000 emos at the bottom of the ocean?
A good start.

Whats so tragic about 4 emo kids dying in a car crash?
The car seated 5.

Why do emos always wear white belts?
Because they suck at karate.

How do you keep an emo from drowning?
Remove your foot off his head.

What do you have when you have an emo kid neck deep in concrete?
Not enough concrete.

My Religion

When it comes to my religion, people, particularly my boyfriend, always wants to debate with me. He's a Buddhist and I'm a catholic, and of course he's always questioning why I believe in God, and who is God, and all that bullcrap. I'd just like to say, I honestly don't give a crap if u don't believe in God, and I will never try to convert anyone. It's just that I believe in him, because I do. I need to believe that there's a reason why I exist, and that I have a purpose, and when I feel lost and alone, I can talk to him. I actually do sometimes and it helps.

So what if there's a lot of misconceptions about my religion and what I believe in? There's also a lot of other things that no one can understand. There's a lot of unanswered questions out there. But I don't care. But with everything wrong with the world, I can say I find comfort that I believe in something.

Happy Sister!

My sister told us the great great great news last night! Her boyfriend is coming! yayyy! =) now she doesn't have to be sad and lonely! i heart her very much and im glad that she's happy! =)

My Dental Dilemma

Today, I went to the dentist to get checked up and for a cleaning. Now to be honest, I've been kinda neglecting my pearly whites for a while (haven't actually been to a dentist in 2 years! gasp!) and I thought it was about time, plus this guy gives student discounts! yay! I remember in the Philippines I used to love going to the dentist, she was really nice and the procedures didn't hurt at all, even my when I was getting my braces done. But today... well, today was different. I understand now why people hate going to the dentist. First of all, he made me wear this funny looking yellow goggles, which was fine since no one was there. Then it came to the cleaning and check up part. It hurt like hell. I swear my toes were curled and my nails were lodged into my skin because of the pain. I thought he was scraping off my gums to be honest.

But what hurts the most is, he found that, I have to get four x- rays, a filling, my wisdom teeth (2 of them) taken out by surgery(!), something about dental thingy, and another thing... I don't have to do them all at once though, I can get them fixed one by one or something... but he gave me an estimate of all of them and lo and behold i need a whooping $760!

Currently, I have 50 bux in my bank account. Whoop. If you want to donate to Jasmine's healthy teeth fund, you can email me at jasminejose5@yahoo.com

I hope you can help =)